For some weeks now, I have been having problems with my e-mail. Weird things were going on. Some ZGrams would return to me as "undeliverable", yet when I queried people, they said that they received them. Some received them in multiples - one person in Sweden reported as many as 14!
Others, even in the United States, did not receive them at all, even though they had no trouble receiving individual letters. Still others would receive my ZGrams erratically - some missing, some in multiples.
Worse yet, there came a time when it seemed next to impossible to send any ZGrams at all from my list. I worked with my server, who tried to be helpful, and he told me to break down the list into smaller chunks; maybe it was too big.
I did, and things got even worse. My server told me also that my problems seemed to have to do with Sprint, and that he did not think it was political - but to keep watching what was happening and to report to him.
One thing I noticed was that when my Eudora beach ball started spinning, it would always stop and block at certain names I knew to be key names in the movement. I have now been watching this for a couple of weeks, and it is always the same pattern. Lately, the letters seemed to go through okay, albeit with some "stops", and so I just kept on watching - which is what I did yesterday.
As I was watching the Eudora beach ball spin, I noticed that it repeated the list. In other words, the names on my ZGram list went through the system TWICE.
I immediately checked if I had made a mistake - but I cannot see that I did. I update my list every day, but I did NOT put the names into the system twice. I don't know what this means. Was it my program? My server? Was it a hacker job?
Within hours if not minutes, a woman named Cecelia started abusing my list by asking "ZGram subscribers" to join a "Revisionist discussion list."
Now who is Cecelia, you ask?
I have known Cecelia from her e-mail messages for almost a year, and I can only tell you that my radar is up and has been on red for a long time. Why? Because she leaves her fingerprints all over her letters, and it is Yiddish German. She says it isn't Yiddish; it's Augsburg dialect - but trust me, it is Yiddish. Any native German will tell you it is Yiddish.
Suffice it also to say that she has been warmly endorsed by Rich Graves whom many of us know and whose "inventiveness" for causing mischief to our cause seems to be inexhaustible. He sent a snicker, too.
I immediately wrote to Cecelia and asked her not to use my list. Specifically, I wrote:
"I would VERY MUCH appreciate it if you would NOT use my list for your purposes."
She wrote me back:
"Well, that is up to the individuals. I (sic) somebody writes me back (and so far, one already has) asking to be included on the Revisionist discussion list when I get it up, then I will include them. Everybody saw my notification of the forthcoming list and all are free to ask to be included or to ask to be excluded.
But I am not going to automatically put everybody from your list on my list. So you don't have to worry about that. I have compiled my list of Revisionists and non-Revs interested in Revisionism from several sources."
Well, then I knew - and now you know. From there, it went from bad to worse. All day yesterday, people have been flooded with unwanted mail; some even with old ZGrams. They did not come from me.
That's all that I can tell you. I am sorry that it happened, but you have to realize that of all the "politically incorrect" websites, the Zundelsite is probably the most visible and vulnerable one. If there is a way to hurt or sabotage our work, our enemies will do it. You can be sure of that.
I have had five or six cancellations so far - and all of them came yesterday. I faced my computer this morning with trepidation, thinking that I would probably face losing half of my list - but today there was only one additional cancellation. People seem to realize what has happened, and that letter Cecelia wrote in her initial solicitation is so transparent in intent that I don't think too much will come of this latest interference.
This gives me now an opportunty to say something else that I have wanted to say for a long time, and it is this: The Zundelsite is not running a peep show. What we have to say, and what we are trying to do, can see the light of day and stand up to public scrutiny. Ernst Zndel is the most over-investigated, scrutinized, probed and observed political activist I have ever known. To be on our list carries a certain risk of being vilified by the enemies of truth, but that comes with the territory. You may be sure that if your name is on our list, sooner or later, someone will try to hurt you. It is my understanding that it is relatively easy to get hold of most anybody's list.
Some of us feel that we have no choice but to be visible - at certain risk to us. Some feel they can't risk that. I may have felt like that two years ago; now I no longer do because I realize what it will cost me if I don't do what I know is right. The movement, at this point, is very rough and raw. We need good people willing to stand up and say: "I am drawing my line in the sand."
I can understand your upset, and I wish it hadn't happened - and I can't tell you how glad I am that not more of you, upset as you were, asked to be taken off the list. I will be happy to do that if that is what you wish. If you stay on, there will be people who will know. I don't think it will do in the long run to be afraid of what might happen to your name, or your career, or your own safety if you are afraid to be on a perfectly legitimate quest - which is, at this point in our movement, the following: "If we can't trust the so-called "Holocaust" claims to be true, what else is being hidden from our eyes?"
At this point, I ask only this: Don't use my list to bombard others, even with the best intentions. And if you receive messages that SEEM to come from me or Ernst but read a little strange, please take them with a grain of salt.
Ingrid
Thought for the Day:
"We are going to have to find ways of organizing ourselves cooperatively, sanely, scientifically, harmonically and in regenerative spontaneity with the rest of humanity around earth. . . We are not going to be able to operate our spaceship earth successfully nor for much longer unless we see it as a whole spaceship and our fate as common. It has to be everybody or nobody."
Buckminster Fuller